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STALKING BREAKDOWN 2. IRL (From 6:48min) I think both examples are self-explanatory. The stalking in the street started happening from 2019. The “low self-control angry forum member” event happened in 2018 or 2019. ~ My K-Pop Experience: How My Experience Shaped My Personal Journey as a Christian (Chapter 31, Part 3) ~

STALKING BREAKDOWN: A month or so (and many years beyond) after I started talking to that person, I noticed that strange things were happening to me. 1. Online (From 6:00 min) A. Confusions between the pronouns “You” and “I” I could understand about hiding their identity (swapping gender, name and age - perhaps because they did not know what I could be capable of...lol) but, why confuse things even more by saying something you wish the other person would do, using

In this chapter and in the following parts, I'll be adding some details regarding some of the experiences I have shared in the video. 2:22min - Disclaimer: “In this video, I am just sharing my personal experience which may not represent the experience of people interacting with the individual, I would be mentioning later on.” Meaning that people may have had a positive experience interacting with "these" people as shared in a previous chapter. I cannot argue with their experi

“Everybody says that you're so great, yeah Walk around like you deserve that gold But what would happen if they knew the place that You got it from? I guess that I was just another victim Someone that you thought that you could play I had a feeling and I should have listened ” ~ Robin Hood by Anson Seabra January 2023 Finally uploaded. I was so fearful, yet, peace embraced me. So, it was true. Deliverance was behind my fear. I think the video resumes pretty well what happened

For the next few months, I started working on a video. I was also reading daily the resources sent by the pastor (bible quotations + explanations, E-book on forgiveness). It was not easy. Many days, I wanted to back off. The spiritual attacks were stronger, and the fear seemed to envelop me like a duvet in winter. Hearing the recording of myself repeatedly made me realise that what I had been through for the past 2-3 years was far from normal. I could also see how God had pro

“A door has been opened, and the enemy has come into your life like a flood, seeking to overwhelm you, and seeking to cause you to see your Saviour and especially your Father in Heaven, as Satan and his evil spirits are portraying him to you. [...]” The pastor was right. God does not contradict himself. Why would He call witchcraft an abomination, but allow it in my life to make His plan happen? It didn’t make sense. Surely, I had messed up big time somewhere by completely mi

I decided to get in touch with a Seventh-day Adventist pastor in America I had heard preaching on demonic oppression. The email was so long and detailed that my shy self would not dare to post it here… Here are a few passages: “How can I accept that God's will for my life, may not always be pain-free?” “I took decisions believing that they were God's will, but these paths only led me to failure, pain and shame. […] So, I'm wondering what is the point of following God if whene

January 24, 2022 “Is that you Kitania who has released that video?” It made sense. I just had a dream of being chased by a hitman. Most of them would happen after the release of videos. I was tired and just wanted my peaceful nights back, but who would not think that I was crazy? ~ My K-Pop Experience: How My Experience Shaped My Personal Journey as a Christian (Chapter 26) ~

May 2021 “It would be a waste”, I said while looking at the notes I had made a few years prior describing many shows or interviews the group had made where inappropriate things had been done or said. I thought that one day I would compile them as a video but the nauseous feelings I had while looking at them were so strong, it was easier to pretend I never wrote them. Until, one of my long-time friends, YouTube, strike back with a recommendation: BTS x KBSNews9 appearance. Jan

January 21, 2022 Release of Questionable articles ft. bts video Back in 2018-2019, a member on the forum I was part of, had forwarded the link to a few articles which are included in the video. I am still unsure if the tone used in these articles were to make them more humorous, or if the writers were serious. Anyways, I had also worked on another video in the meantime, and it was time to have it released: January 23, 2022: Hidden dates within BTS' contents where things did r